Age makes us slow down, which is not so good for the technique, but is the perfect state of mind for making beautiful music. Hot young players that can whip through the fastest Beethoven 4th are impressive for sure, but are they making music? Are they listening or just playing at the lick? Do they even know how the excerpt really weaves into the piece, even if they have listened to the work 100 times? Some do maybe, but the majority don’t. As I come up on the “Big 5-0” I look back on what I thought made a good player over the years…in my teens it was the competition of All-State and getting through the trills in the first movement of the Mozart Bassoon Concerto. In my 20’s it was about nailing those excerpts 10 out of 10 times so I could play a perfect audition (yeah, right!). In my 30’s I didn’t play the bassoon. Something I deeply regret, but upon my return to my instrument in my 39th year, I started to put it all together. My teachers’ wisdom finally sunk in…I had lot of “AH HA! That’s what he/she meant!” moments. The smoothness and maturity I used to wonder at in my teacher hands was now present in my hands. In this decade I have grown more as a musician and listened with more awe than I ever have. I don’t compete anymore, not even with myself. I just play for the sheer joy of it and I‘m a better bassoonist because of it. I have found the grace of music.
So for those of you who fear aging as a player, I say it only gets better. Sure you have to practice a lot to keep those fingers moving, but I say the “slowing down” makes you listen, really listen. And I promise that you’ll hear your favorite pieces for the first time – all over again.












